Dad

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you everyday
As time goes by the loneliness grows
How I miss you, nobody knows
I think of you in silence
I often speak your name
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame
No one knows my sorrow
No one sees me weep
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep
I’ve never stopped loving you
I’m sure I never will
Deep inside my heart
You are with me still
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any
My heart still aches as I whisper low
“I need you and miss you so”
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say
But I just can’t keep quiet anymore
So I’ll tell you anyway
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill
I love you so Dad
And I always will


March 15, 1949 - July 10, 2002....Missing you always....Loving you forever!

Happy Anniversary/Birthday Johnnie

I should of posted this yesterday but I was a little busy. It has been an amazing 2 years of wedded bliss. The road hasn't always been smooth but our love for each other continues to grow and that is what really counts. Johnnie turned 30 so we are officially out of our 20's. We surprised him with a cake and the kids tried to smash his face but we just couldn't do it...he is just to fast...maybe next year when he is a little older =)

4th of July

We had so much fun at Crystals yesterday. We went swimming, ate good food, had great entertainment (all the kiddos) and watch some fireworks. Emily made the kids a 4th of July pinata and wow that was really fun to watch. Tysen had us laughing so hard with his awesome personality. Really that kid is hilarious! It was the perfect day, I love being with family.

I think July is the hardest month for me. The 4th of July was the last holiday that I got to spend with my dad. I loved getting a reaction out of him. I know he pretended to be annoyed but deep down he really loved it. I am not a singer BUT I love to sing. I was at my parents house for a BBQ before we went to the high school to see the fire works. Proud to be an American came on the radio and I was singing it and he told me to shut up....of course everyone who knows me knows I don't do what I am told so I sang it even louder. While we were at the fireworks show that same song came on and I looked at my dad with a huge smile, he gave me the don't you dare look. I love that memory of him, it's one of my favorites. I still can't believe that it will be 7 years. It still hurts and makes me sad. I love you Papa!

The picture above is when I graduated. I think that is when he was the most proud of me.

Miracles

I have a little less than 4 months to get back to the temple so I can be with Marisa on her wedding day…..Can I do it? YES I CAN! I talked to my Bishop and he thinks that it will be no problem. I am so excited for Marisa and I am so thankful for the motivation to get me back to where I need to be. The picture is title Miracles and I think that it is a miracle that I will be able to be there. So THANK YOU Marisa for such a wonderful gift!

Beach Trip

A perfect California beach day =)

My hubby climbing on some rocks

We went to Corona Del Mar yesterday and it was beautiful! It was the perfect beach day. We spent the day with Shelley ( my sis in law) and her family. We had so much fun, my boys just love her girls. Children really do make life enjoyable.

ALL DAKOTA ALL THE TIME

Dakota is playing spring soccer again. Here are some pictures of his last game. He did score but I don't have a picture of that. He is playing so well and is becoming a leader on his team. I am so proud of him. As he gets older you can tell that his style of play is becoming more mature. He is so confident on the field and in charge. Below are a couple pictures of him scaring the girls on the opposite team with his powerful kicks. I don't blame them, I have been hit by one of his kicks and MAN DO THEY HURT!

Spring is here!

After work today John and I took the boys and my niece Taylor to the park to play around. We had so much fun. We set up the volleyball net and played a couple of games. I miss playing volleyball. We used to take the boys all the time to the park but we've stop doing that. Actually we have all been going our separate ways lately. Dakota actually was very upset about us not doing things as a family like we used to. I guess as parents we sometimes get selfish with our time. It's hard juggling a full time job, being a wife and a mother AND trying to get time in for myself. I really miss the time we spend together too. Children grow up so fast we need to spend more time together. We are going to go to the park again on Thursday, I would take pictures but I need a new battery.

Dakota keeps talking about going away for college, or moving out and it makes me sad. I don't want my boys to leave. I want them to stay just the way they are forever right now.....I know keep dreaming. I hope that everyone is enjoying their families...I am going to go enjoy mine some more =)

BEST DAY EVER!

Today Dakota got to meet his favorite Duck Bobby Ryan. It was such a neat experience. When he was getting his shirt signed by Bobby Ryan and Andrew Ebbet, I told Bobby that he was Dakota's favorite player and his face lit up and he said " Awww thanks buddy". I thought that was totally cool. What a nice guy! I thought even if he wasn't sincere it still made us feel good and left a great impression. We walked away feeling that we made his day. He also got Ryan Carter's and Ryan Whitney's signature. We saw Ryan Getzlaf but could get his signature(too many people). Hockey players are so nice and seem really genuine not like some other sports players.

Logan had fun but I think that was because we were at Knott's Berry Farm. I know John was excited because this is his team and he loves them! I had fun seeing all three of my boys happy.

Nicest Looking Cake

Tonight was our ward's Blue and Gold dinner for Logan's pack. The father and sons had a cake decorating contest and Logan's cake got the "Nicest Looking Cake" award. It was cool...Logan really does love scouts.

Bored

I am sitting at home bored. There is a ton of stuff to do but I don't want to do it. I started a new blog. I am going to track my weight loss on my weight loss blog. Other than that there is nothing new. The boys are good, Johnnie is good and I am here. I feel kind of funky....yep funky. OH I also start an online journal on LDSJournal. That is pretty cool. I really need to get back into that. I need to work on my genealogy too AND get back to the temple. My brother in law is getting baptized this weekend and he truly has inspired me. I know that it is possible to turn your life around. I need more faith, I don't think I have enough. Can I borrow some? I need to work harder, be better, more focused. I need to get off the computer!

Today was a good day

Today was awesome! Logan bore his testimony for the 1st time. It was so sweet, so simple and yet powerful. The faith of a child really is something. Logan is my rock. He wants to go to scouts and he wants to go to church.

Dakota was ordained a teacher today. The Adams came down along with a friend of mine that was in a really bad motorcycle last September. I know that it meant so much to Dakota that they were there. It meant so much to me.

Both the boys are setting good examples for each other and for me. It is awesome to think that if Dakota stays faithful that he should be able to ordain Logan a teacher and priest. I am so thankful for my children and how I am blessed to be their mother. I am so thankful for Jesus Christ taking upon him my sins and through him one day I will be able to return to my Heavenly Father. I know the road is long and hard but Jesus Christ never said that it was easy, only that it was worth it.

Yes today was a good day!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

We went to a Ducks game New Years Eve and had a lot of fun. After the game, we came home and watch our favorite cartoon series the Avatar. It was nice to be home with the family.

SAN DIEGO SUPER CHARGERS!

MY BOYS MADE IT TO THE PLAYOFFS! GO CHARGERS! GO CHARGERS!

Amazing Opportunity

Dakota has been invited to train with professional Dutch coaches and compete with student athletes from over 25 countries at the Youth Friendship Games, an Olympic-style sports festival in Holland. IN HOLLAND!!!! OH MY! What an amazing opportunity that would be for him. We're not sure if he is going to go but just to be invited is really cool.



On an sad note he didn't make the spring select team. I have heard that it is hard to get selected. He will still play soccer in the spring and hopefully will try out for the high school team next year. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? HIGH SCHOOL!!!! UGH! He is growing up so fast! Why can't they stay little forever?

Happy 14th Birthday...Dakota!

Can you believe it? My baby is growing up. We took him ice skating for his birthday. We had a lot of fun. Logan loved it even though his bum was on the ice more than his feet.

happy birthday to me

I couldn't have asked for a better birthday. Johnnie made me breakfast, we got a better deal on cable, Kota's team took 3rd in the all-star tournament AND my wonderful husband made this beautiful cake for me. I feel truly blessed. I love my family so much. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. Thank you to everyone for all of the birthday wishes. I love you!

All-Stars

Dakota made All-Stars again this year. He was totally excited! He has a chance to make the spring select team. One of the coaches was looking at him and some other kids on his team at their last game. He took our phone number so keep your fingers crossed. Kota REALLY wants to make the team. I don't know why he wouldn't though, he is a awesome player...LOL and I am a little biased. I am just so proud of my soccer star!

Getting to know you Christmas edition...

Welcome to the Christmas edition of getting to know your friends. Okay, here's what you're supposed to do, and try not to be a SCROOGE!!! Just copy this entire post and paste into a new post. Change all the answers so that they apply to you. Then tagged some people and get to know them even better ......Tis the Season to be NICE!

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Gift Bags

2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial

3. When do you put up the tree? The weekend after Thanksgiving

4. When do you take the tree down? The 1st weekend in the New Year

5. Do you like eggnog? Nope

6. Favorite gift received as a child? Cabbage Patch Doll

7. Hardest person to buy for? My husband…he is so picky

8. Easiest person to buy for? My boys

9. Do you have a nativity scene? No, not until I can have a house and somewhere to put it

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail…though email would be cheaper…LOL

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? A Packers blanket….COME ON…I’m a CHARGERS FAN!

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Santa Claus 1, 2 and 3

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? December 24th……nah just joking sometime in November

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? YES….LOL

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? My moms cranberry salad

16. Lights on the tree? Yep

17. Favorite Christmas song? All of them

18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home? Usually go to someone’s house

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? I don’t think so…

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? Tinkerbell….my hubbie bought her for me last year. I love Tinkerbell!

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas morning...but I hate waiting

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? People being rude when they should be nice

23. What theme or color are you using? Whatever

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Pies

25. What do you want for Christmas this year? Twilight the series box set

I tag everyone who reads our blog!

I've been tagged

8 Things I like a whole lot:
-My husband
-My kids
-Watching my kids play soccer
-Getting together with family
-Movies
-Music...Life would be so boring without this
-Internet
-CHOCOLATE

8 Phrases I say often:
-Why do I have to repeat myself
-Did you wash your hair, your body, with soap?
-WHATEVER
-Why are you so butthurt
-Pick a lane....dork
-Where's CoCo
-I hit my leg....(this is my excuse when my bowling ball goes in the gutter...lol)
-How much do you love your mommy

8 Things I want to do before I die:
-Get married in the temple
-Have my boys sealed to us
-Have more babies
-Travel to Europe
-Own a home
-Get my dads work done
-Go to the east coast
-See the Chargers win a Superbowl

8 Things I've learned from my past:
-So called friends don't always have your best interest
-Family is more important than anything else
-Rules are there for a reason
-People are not always what they seem
-Teenagers don't know everything
-Experiences I will never let my kids go through
-Don't say yes when you know you should say no
-Keep dreaming, don't let anyone tell you that you can't do something.

8 Places I'd love to visit
-Hawaii
-England
-Germany
-Ireland
-Nauvoo
-Washignton DC
-Canada
-Utah

8 Things I currently need or want:
-A house
-College money for the kids
-A maid
-A vacation (november can't get here soon enough)
-Clothes for the kids
-A new book to read
-Prop 8 to pass
-to have the strength to lose weight, go to church, be a good example to my family, save money, be a better friend, to have friends and be a good wife.

8 People I tag :
Crystal
Shelley
Emily
Betheny
Heather G
Memory
Rachael
Jenni M